Have you ever had to make a life and death decision about yourself?

This past holiday ended up being quite unusual and certainly not one that I’ll likely forget. December started out slowly, and as I watched everyone around me go into hustle mode, I was a little jealous that I didn’t have any holiday traditions, plans or parties to attend – at least not until the end of the month.

But that changed quickly because I ended up having a couple of unexpected guests, including a grueling bronchial flu that took me down and resulted in my being sick for the rest of the month and into the beginning of the New Year.

Still struggling to get over the cruddy bronchial thing, on Christmas Eve, I flew to Arizona to be with my older son, his wife and my two granddaughters. My younger son arrived an hour after me. I was exhausted and still hacking but had really been looking forward to starting a new tradition with my kids and was determined to have a good time.

I had also been struggling with another health issue, a mystery rash that I had attempted to clear up for some time. I thought I had gotten it under control, but it flared up significantly while I was away. Getting sick earlier in the month left me feeling quite vulnerable and overwhelmed – especially during the worst of it. I had had such a severe headache, along with the body aches, that this thing could have landed me in the hospital. The pain in the top of my head was so intense all I could do was lie in bed and cry.

I did finally reach out to a friend of mine who also does medical intuitive work, and together, we found a solution for the nasty bugs that had overtaken my body. I was grateful that she was willing to work with me in addition to several of her own clients who were suffering from similar symptoms. She was truly a blessing to me, and between her and the Angels’ healing energy, I came back to the living.

I knew I needed help with this rash. It can be difficult to remain objective when doing work on yourself. Again, I reached out to my dear friend and colleague. When one of us is down, the other one has her back. As a result of our collaboration, we have cultivated a great trust between us.

Before I called her, I sat on the bed feeling helpless, tears streaming down my face. I sat for a moment in silence, and what came to me was an image of myself standing in two different times, two different worlds. Throughout my life I felt as though my energy was being split, and suddenly, it made sense to look back over different events and situations I had encountered. I could see that I had been clinging to things and people with an intense fear. I didn’t know how to navigate or understand this crazy planet, and I feared that I wouldn’t survive.

When I got on the phone with my colleague, I told her that I felt I had one foot here and one foot elsewhere and had lived this way off and on at different times in my life. I told her that I felt that a part of me didn’t want to be here.

As my friend tuned into my energy, the messages for me started to flow from the Angels through her. What she was hearing them communicate was that a part of my energy was still connected to my previous life. This left my spirit, therefore my physical body, vulnerable and weak but also hesitant in many respects to allow myself, all of myself, to be here in this life, on this planet, 100 percent present with all my energy.

Given my recent health crisis, and now this terrible rash, it seemed my body and spirit were communicating to me that something needed to change, and that this was the time those changes were meant to happen.

What I was being presented with at that moment was a plexus-point, crossroads, and I needed to make a decision. The decision was between two actions: I could stay here and choose to call back my energy from wherever I had left it so that I could be fully present as I fulfilled my soul’s mission. OR, I could leave, exit this planet, this life.

Now, that was an interesting choice! Even more interesting to me was that it was being presented to me while I was with my children and grandchildren.

My friend suggested that I sit in quiet meditation and ask the organism that was causing the rash to flare so intensely to return to wherever it had come from. She told me to thank the organism causing the rash for its message and for getting my attention.

After I told the organism that it was time to return to its source and called my energy back into my being, my colleague told me that I was to relay the decision I needed to make about staying and living out my life here on earth or leaving. As I shared this choice I was about to make with the organism, I knew immediately that I couldn’t leave – could not leave my boys, or my granddaughters, or my precious Whisper, my kitty back home.

I couldn’t leave my friends or the new life I had begun to create for myself after coming out of a difficult divorce. I had worked so hard on so many levels that it didn’t make sense to me to go elsewhere, knowing that wherever I ended up could be just as challenging as what I have been facing in this life. My friend and colleague was hearing the phrase, “The grass isn’t always greener.” …And again, I found myself thinking, “Isn’t this an interesting circumstance I’m in!”

I got quiet again and sat with this intriguing thought as I conversed with the Angels, feeling into my heart about what was being presented to me at this moment. I asked that all my energy be returned from wherever it had been spent, lent or left behind. I requested that these parts of my energy, my life force, be returned to me, my body and my spirit so that I could heal. I committed myself to being fully present in this life from this point on.

The next morning when I woke up, the rash had ceased to itch and had started to dissipate. The rest of the time I was in Arizona, the rash did not bother me in the least.

This was not the end of this story…

The day before New Year’s Eve, I woke up with a migraine headache. At least I thought it was a migraine but later discovered it was not. I have suffered with migraines for a long time, and it had only been two weeks since the last one. I didn’t want to go through that again.

I struggled through the day making healing requests to ease the pain that was intensifying by the hour, but to no avail. The pain increased and by that evening it was full blown. I also had some intense pressure in my right upper teeth that was concerning, and so again, I made many healing requests to the Angels. This area was a bit better the next day, but the headache was still present and not showing any signs of going away.

Intuitively, I knew that this situation was different from the previous two health issues I had faced and that I needed to seek out my friend’s help once again. Obviously, she was meant to be a messenger.

She tuned into me and found a lot of blockage in my right upper sinus area. Her requests to Angels allowed for a release of this blockage, moving the energy down the entire right side of my body. At the same time, she sensed that there was something right above the blockage, right where I was feeling the intense pain. She was being guided not to do anything about the area just above the blockage, that it was up to me to tune in on my own and ask the Angels for help on my own behalf.

After my friend and I hung up, again, I sat quietly and asked what this block, this pain was about. Why was it not getting better? What was the cause of this pain? I was shown the words “brain aneurysm”. What? A brain aneurysm?? How could that be possible? I was healthy. I just had a migraine headache – something I had suffered with for 20 years, although in the last few months, the headaches seemed different; they had changed.

When information comes to me like that, I know it to be true, I had a brain aneurysm. Was this to be my exit? Was this ultimately my  decision to stay or leave. I wasn’t scared, just in shock. I knew that I had seen and experienced so many miracles since connecting with my spiritual teacher and being blessed with my intuitive and abilities. I also knew what was possible with respect to Angelic healing. If I were truly meant to go, then it was my time. But if it was in my hands, I would be able to stay and be healed of this; that much I knew.

Without hesitation, I reached out to my spiritual teacher for help. The next morning, when I awoke, the pain in my head was completely gone and I knew I was going to be okay.

This was a true Divine miracle and one I will never forget!

I realize that so many people need / want proof, but my proof is in what I know in every fiber of my being, in my heart and soul. I know the miracles that are possible, and I live them every day through my healing work and by using my intuitive abilities. How could I leave and not be a part of this amazing existence, difficult as it can be at times?

I know that I am guided, supported, loved and blessed beyond what I could ever imagine. I also know that these miracles are not only for me or a select few, but for anyone and everyone. I am not unique or special. I live my life in surrender to Divine Will. I am in continual connection with my Angel team, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. They guide me in every aspect of my life, even the mundane.

Did I start here? No, I did not, and I still work on my doubts and my level of surrender…always doing my best to stay humble and keep my ego in check. We don’t start out with this level of faith or trust; it takes time and an openness to stick your toe in and experience for yourself what is possible.

Here is a simple process to follow to call back your energy from past traumas, relationships and experiences in which you may have given up a part of yourself and may have left a part of your precious energy behind:

1. Get yourself comfortable and sit in a quiet space where you won’t be disturbed. You may even do a short meditation prior to starting.
2. Ask that your Angels, Guides, or whichever Beings you feel comfortable communicating with to facilitate a deep connection between you and them.
3. Now simply ask that all the energy you may have left behind, knowingly or unknowingly, be purified and returned to your being.
4. Ask that you be shown anything that you can learn from this experience if it is beneficial to your spiritual growth and awareness.
5. Ask your Guides to help you integrate this new power and assist you in keeping it with yourself, to protect your energy so that you don’t continue to give it away.
6. Ask the Guides to remove any energy from your physical and spiritual body that is not yours and return it to whomever or wherever it belongs.
7. Now thank the Beings for their support, guidance and love with full faith that they have restored your energy.
8. Rinse and repeat as necessary, keeping your energy field clean and pure.

If you are in pain, have a disease that you have been told is incurable, or aren’t getting better from a health regimen you are following, please reach out to me via email.

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